Post by Akito-sama on Jan 8, 2006 20:58:49 GMT -5
Akito:
The world around me is empty. I am alone, for everyone surrounding me sees me for what I am. A Monster. I can do nothing to change their minds, nothing to prove them wrong. Because in reality, they aren't wrong. I do these terrible things to them, to my beloved Jyunishi. But I am better than they are, am I not? I am their God, they should not view me as worthless… But which side of is speaking? I don't mean to hurt them, but they so often deserve it… Does that make me a monster? Punishing them when it deserved? But is it deserved, or simply another moment where I am not myself, and see everyone as beneath me?
I scare myself, really. I can't help myself from hurting them, and when I do, I enjoy it. It's a thrill, seeing them kneeling beneath me, whimpering for nothing short of forgiveness. But it's sick, it's wrong, it isn't me. I'm not the one hurting them, I'm the one curled up in a ball, wishing I were dead. It's almost like there is another part of me, the one who makes me do these things… Is that my curse? Is that what makes me so worthless? In truth, I do not know. All I know is that they hate me, and in a demented way, I deserve it, do I not?
I am their God. They should love me, pray to me. But no one does. I have been forsaken, and I will always be. I can see it all…. My life spiraling away from me as the curse kills me… I bear the brunt of their curse… I sacrificed my life before it ever begun. And all because I thought they would love me for it. I hate hurting them, but I enjoy it. It kills me to bring them down in the way I do, but I feel accomplished…
What reason is there to live, when you have been born, to die?
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Yuki:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
Kyo:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
Tohru:
How I see Her:
How She Sees Me:
Hatsuharu:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
((I'm not done yet, but I completely re-wrote everything. ^^))
The world around me is empty. I am alone, for everyone surrounding me sees me for what I am. A Monster. I can do nothing to change their minds, nothing to prove them wrong. Because in reality, they aren't wrong. I do these terrible things to them, to my beloved Jyunishi. But I am better than they are, am I not? I am their God, they should not view me as worthless… But which side of is speaking? I don't mean to hurt them, but they so often deserve it… Does that make me a monster? Punishing them when it deserved? But is it deserved, or simply another moment where I am not myself, and see everyone as beneath me?
I scare myself, really. I can't help myself from hurting them, and when I do, I enjoy it. It's a thrill, seeing them kneeling beneath me, whimpering for nothing short of forgiveness. But it's sick, it's wrong, it isn't me. I'm not the one hurting them, I'm the one curled up in a ball, wishing I were dead. It's almost like there is another part of me, the one who makes me do these things… Is that my curse? Is that what makes me so worthless? In truth, I do not know. All I know is that they hate me, and in a demented way, I deserve it, do I not?
I am their God. They should love me, pray to me. But no one does. I have been forsaken, and I will always be. I can see it all…. My life spiraling away from me as the curse kills me… I bear the brunt of their curse… I sacrificed my life before it ever begun. And all because I thought they would love me for it. I hate hurting them, but I enjoy it. It kills me to bring them down in the way I do, but I feel accomplished…
What reason is there to live, when you have been born, to die?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yuki:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
Kyo:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
Tohru:
How I see Her:
How She Sees Me:
Hatsuharu:
How I see Him:
How He Sees Me:
((I'm not done yet, but I completely re-wrote everything. ^^))
